hmm, guess i should blog out certain things. else they will say they don't know what im thinking also. hah. this gonna be long....

alright, so this actually marks the end of volleyball career in republic poly. let's just skip to the last match.

reached there early and watched the match before us. saw how SIM played and i think their fighting spirt is really strong when they play against NUS. next we went to warm up and saw that ntu only start warming up when we can stepped into the court. well that got me quite mad cause even though it's no big match, but where's the least respect i would say. ok nvm about it was jus telling the girls that we shall win this match down to prove to them.

but in the end we lost to them 1-3. it's ok cause everyone really tried their best. especially jialin despite her leg injury and breathless halfway thru she still try her best to bring the team morale up and go for every ball. everyone in the team have tried their best. it's a very tiring match..

it didn't really occur to me when the final whistle blow.

during debrief i think everyone was expecting me to cry. haha. but i think i was too tired at that time and my mind was actually blank. last chance? last match? i thought of it before, but on the spot it left me thinking nothing at all.

so we have to rush to board the bus, that was the time.. everyone in the bus trying to make me cry. so bad of them huh.. haha.

so everyone of them have this little talks to me.. from the first time they know me, till now. the process. and on what gillian say make me think, all the things i've been through. it's like a wake up call. perhaps i hasnt been thinking much about these things cause all i want is to finish this race happily with them. they really make me feel sad to leave with what they said. and they succeeded....

thinking back on the days when they left, it's sure a tough road to walk from then.. and when you know you thought that there will be people to go through it with you. but slowly one by one left. but there's no one to blame, cause they have their reasons to do so. if it's me, maybe i will do the same. that's when the real challenge begin, decision making.

various reasons that made me caught in the middle.

i admit it's tiring, sad, frustrating at times. it make me really feel like giving up. but sure there's the happy moments as well.

trying to put everyone back together. starting from when the year 1s first came in, to camp, to sports tours then various outings that was organised. all the moments spend with each of them no matter good or bad. are all memories that cannot be replaced. how short 1 year can be.

they are one of the reason that keep me hanging on.

i'll miss sending mass sms to you all informing of any trainings.

i'll miss the joy and laughter during trainings.

i'll miss saying warm up/pao bu when you all will still be sitting down there.

i'll miss all the nonsense yet funny stuffs that's coming out from you girls. like what lame jokes jenifer can have(fridge)

i'll miss ivy's powerful shifu technique.

i'll miss the dinner with you girls after trainings.

i'll miss the breakout together.

i'll miss the late night out.

i'll miss the talks, the hangover.

i'll miss camp, sport trip.

this list will just go on and on.

just to say thank you for everything, for being there. for going through all these with me unknowingly.

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