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2011-07-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

just got this news from my friend.. life is too fragile already. please be fine my friend.
i will pray for you.

2011-07-02T22:19:00.003+08:00

I need some time, to clear the thoughts. They dont understand. so I have to understand my own emotions, with a much stronger heart. Because that's how things seem to be. everytime, everywhere. That's how my life seem to be. Accept it.
once those thoughts are clear, I believe... everything, will be fine.
because.. remember, life is beautiful.

-note to self

2011-06-14T13:44:00.001+08:00

why cant things be much simpler???

2011-06-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

what a day, really.
i need inner peace.
peace.

2011-02-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

Maybe.. Sometimes for certain things or words said, you shouldn't take it too seriously.
it do you no good.

is it really the case?

2011-01-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

everyone just got a day when they feel that things just dont feel right in any way, when they call it the emo day when nothing really happen at all..

dont they?

2010-12-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

when everything just got on repeats.
pretty sick and tired of stuffs like this..
or maybe it's just me.

no matter what, the word is hang on.

2010-10-08T01:21:00.001+08:00

what is it like to have someone close to you telling you nothing but lies.

School

2010-09-26T22:15:00.004+08:00

And so it's into the second module and halfway through. Honestly, time passes real fast. Already went through one exam..
Second module on Arts. It's quite an interesting subject actually, but don't know why lessons are really hard to get by. Especially morning class, not getting enough sleep everyday.. And my head just feels like it's gonna explode anytime... But shouldn't relay on pill too much else getting immune.
Studying is fun, but just that it gets really tiring at times.. With all the projects that needs to be completed within the short amount of time given.
I looked forward to Saturday after straight 6 days of lesson.. But unknowingly I slept through almost the whole day after I reached home... And today it's sunday already. No complain, just another 3 more days. And gonna get a small break before exam.

Hello October, I will see you soon.

2010-09-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.

As we grow up..

2010-08-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

“Bus is here!” Still holding tightly to the hand much bigger than hers and ran to stop the bus ahead.

How many of us do actually still hold on to your mum’s hand and run after a bus together?

There was once this sweet little girl, so innocent, so sweet and pure. Her eyes were always open, always sure, and everyone could just look right in. She could just cry when she lost her favourite toy, and her mum would give a hug consoling:” it’s alright, I will buy you another one” And when things went wrong, she would just sleep and woke up the next day like it never happened before.

She dreamt of how it would be like when she grew up, how wonderful it is to speak like an adult and do what adults could do. Wearing heels that doesn’t fit and tripped at every step she took. Everyday it’s just her family, her friends in school and the times they spent together involving in her life. She shared almost everything like an open book and the word ‘Pretend’ doesn’t exist in her dictionary.

But now, her heart just beats empty and cold, and not realising before, tears actually do have a taste to it. Mind and heart works together now and this process is call “Growing Up”. It’s just a process each of us has to go through.

When you reach home after school, you don’t run to your mum and give her a hug anymore.

When the bus is here, you don’t run for it. Instead you walk slowly for fear of other people looking at you while your mum is there chasing after the bus for you.

You can’t rely on other people to make decision for you anymore, you have to decide yourself and the importances of it grow along with you.

You used to share happenings around you when you get home, but now you just wish to be alone after a tiring day.

And the day when you start to be sensible to the things around you, things just get more complicated.

You get tired easily and often sit down and reminisce about the past.

Doesn’t all this ring a bell to you, and the list could just go on and on.

How often have we heard of the sentence “Where is that reset button to my life?”

But we ought to know that once you hit the start button, there’s no such thing as a pause or restart button for you.

You move along with time, where many times it just went ahead without you. And you realised how much you are losing during these times.

Friends leave one after another, and your circles of friends shrink. But you came to your senses that as you grow, you don’t need a wide circle of friend, you just need that few that is true.

As we grow up, much things change to what we don’t even recognise. A lot of times you will be there doubting things on which you did. Where’s that simplicity from the past you missed?

And right now she’s standing there, all grown up.

When I knew her back then, she was pure and innocent, before.

Trust?

2010-08-12T00:49:00.003+08:00

i can't help but think...
and it's totally not healthy this way, but you started it.
what saddens us, you probably wouldnt understand.
we just need the truth...
THE TRUTH.

2010-07-31T16:30:00.003+08:00

If life sucks, think of ways to make it good for you!
I'm gonna prove you wrong,
So be strong! Be strong and stronger!

what's your choice?

2010-07-31T02:50:00.005+08:00

Before every decision lies a choice.
And with every choice, determine the outcome of that decision.

today, now i've come to realise what is it that's bringing me down..
I just need that support, and to believe in me.. and not because of that certain issue then you are supporting me..

oh well, time for a change, till then.. face up to reality. maybe i just need to sort out my thoughts before i can talk to you normally again..

sometimes it's not about whether to help or not, it's the reason for you to do that..
you don't know how worried it is... you don't know...

You didn't realise how hard it is...

2010-07-30T04:12:00.002+08:00

Just when you keep repeating those stuff..
Isn't there more encouraging words to this. How hard it is to come up with the decision..
And I have realise just how much I've lost during these times. How disappointing is that to me..
If I have a choice to start over again.. Perhaps I should be more firm in my decision..
If I have a choice, I wouldn't want to depend on you guys at all..
So plese stop repeating the same thing.
Overandoverandover..

2010-07-29T23:29:00.001+08:00

Why must everything be linked to the same thing, don't you get tired of repeating the same thing everyday?

2010-07-27T02:13:00.003+08:00

"The truth is, you can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel"

How about to the things you don't wish to listen to.....

- fliepsiebieps

Does covering your ear works?

2010-07-20T01:53:00.003+08:00

Twisted my ankle a little few days back.. Funny..

And I'm always getting hungry late at this hour, bad.. Will have to change my sleeping habit soon too.

Ok later.....

2010-07-19T00:45:00.003+08:00

you know when you're down at times, it's nice to have your friends around..
but when they are not there, music can be the best companion. =)

so long....

anyway it's gonna be end of july soon. and start of august.. how fast can time files.
in a blink this year will be gone again then comes a brand new 2011.

school is starting soon and i can't say that i'm totally prepare for it.. afterall it's been so long since i even use a pen to write properly... and of those things that i'm going to face. but i'm looking forward to learning new things.

I'm at bejeweled for almost 2 hours, and i can only break my own score, damn.

2010-05-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

i'm bored.. but i'm still sick.

x.x

blahblahblahblahblah...

2010-05-21T10:11:00.010+08:00

after so long.. a little update.

why does my tagboard look like some advertising tool!

anyway yups if everything goes well i will be commencing in mdis mass comm courses in aug.
why did i ended up in mass comm, and even mdis. it's not my choice but well, since it's somehow the only choice left. and i tell myself since i'm in it might as well give it all.
i wonder how it's gonna be like. it's like starting something new again after so long..
let this emotion run only when it's near..

so meanwhile now i'm doing on some designing and odd jobs..
but that's only rarely..
i'm getting into forex.. some sort of trading. there are alot of technical and fundamental stuffs to learn. but at least that kept me going in the moolah for a bit if things go smoothly.

i might switch to tumblr soon with the convenience of iphone. updates could be done more frequently.. but till i get the hang of it. afterall this blogspot has been with me for at least 4 years now. woah that's really pretty long.. with the ups and downs that is been shared here.
and who actually remember and is still here in this space after so long i wonder...

alrights, needa get some rest with too much heaty food recently.

i miss this mess & more. =)

2010-04-19T23:21:00.004+08:00

When something brings you down, think of some happy things to live it up.. =)

2010-04-10T19:23:00.003+08:00

I had a dream, a dream that don't come true.

Reality Check.

2010-03-31T00:23:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired today..
Walk and walk for almost the whole day. snap snap snap.
Finally went down to IDP, dreams seem further and further away. course fees is high, expenses is even higher.. need to make a decision by next week..........

CBD area, mint toy museum, vivo.
zzzzzzz..... to be continue..

With Surprise!

2010-03-27T01:11:00.005+08:00

Few days ago told my sister i want to eat kinder joy. Keep wanting her to buy for me.. and...

ta-dah!hehe

2010-03-25T12:18:00.002+08:00

Whatever that happens, happens for a reason. =)

2010-03-17T20:33:00.003+08:00

当你跟一群朋友在外头时，你可以尽情地玩。
或许也能把在脑海里的东西暂时给忘了。
但是，当你回到家里。。
不就只有你一个人。

2010-03-12T22:30:00.004+08:00

Seriously, like what is wrong with ~~guys~~ thinking nowadays..
ok, maybe nothing's wrong. but just what are they thinking.
很好笑leh...

like suddenly feel.. very, tired.
physically tired will result in mentally tired too = no good

this is POWER...

2010-03-07T00:20:00.004+08:00

“Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pangs of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past. And sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, but for the things we didn’t do.”

—	One Tree Hill

take the spirit out and FIGHT!

2010-03-03T13:34:00.005+08:00

and i hope it's gonna work. no matter what it takes i'm gonna try..
to make it happen.

2010-02-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

You really shouldn't care what other people think. Let them make fun of the music you listen to and the words that come out of your mouth. Let them tell you how you should be and ignore it; at the end of the day, you are who you are and no one can take that away.

2010-02-26T00:05:00.001+08:00

you are one lousy shit.

2010-02-23T23:43:00.003+08:00

What is passion now

2010-01-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

gonna sleep early and hoping for a better day tomorrow.

The Blind Side

2010-01-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

Based on the true story of Michael Oher, a homeless African-American youngster from a broken home, taken in by the Touhys, a well-to-do white family who help him fulfill his potential. At the same time, Oher's presence in the Touhys' lives leads them to some insightful self-discoveries of their own. Living in his new environment, the teen faces a completely different set of challenges to overcome. As a football player and student, Oher works hard and, with the help of his coaches and adopted family, becomes an All-American offensive left tackle.

taken from yahoo movie

it's nothing too fanciful. and the pace is rather slow.. but i think the following best describes it

"...But as unnatural as it seems, the more time you spend with The Blind Side, the more engaging it becomes. In fact, before you know it, you’ll become completely engrossed in Michael’s transformation. "

it's interesting. and with some remarkable characters in the show. if you got the time, i think you should really catch this show in the theater.

2010-01-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

so nice of my mum, to buy me the macdonald doraemon lucky charms for this week. she's gonna buy me the whole collection! but too bad, missed the last week's already.. and it's sold out.
anyway, it's the new year, 2010. and chinese new year is coming soon. kinda look forward to it.
brother is coming back this mth too!

i'm so gonna catch Sherlock Holmes.

2009-12-25T23:41:00.004+08:00

and so, it all went wrong right from the beginning

that's it, why do you believe...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

i'm back from my holidays, it came slow.. but passed fast.
isn't it great to go for a holiday with your best friends.
one word to describe, carefree.... from everything else.

teddy bear is sleeping beside me now..
such a sweetie. when she's not barking at her high pitch voice.

A Self Reminder

2009-12-10T01:41:00.011+08:00

In our everyday life..

Conversation is something not to be missed in our daily life, anytime & anywhere.
One's conversation will come in many different emotions; example when you are feeling angry, sometimes the sentences that comes out wouldn't be pleasant to the ear.
But have you ever thought about it, how you react affects the other party's feelings too.. or do you only realise it later.
Maybe humans are just too immune to this "conversation" that they wouldn't pay attention to such detail. or maybe it's just too natural to express their feelings first follow by the details.

Perhaps at times, instead of speaking at first instance and if allow... hold back and think through, especially when anger fills you.

by martynax

How will you react in such a situation?
You will be surprise how it actually affects how you feel too..

2009-12-04T23:16:00.005+08:00

you ought to know that i need your help not because of other motive..
well, since you bring it that way.. i think i rather not get involve.

It's December, which spells............ fill in the blank.
im so bored now.. was chatting with ling on the phone just now. blabbering nonsense.. hahah. now dont know where she go already..
im hungry.. but i shouldnt be eating now man.. so late already.
hais dont know why feeling so down now =(

<3 her voice

Truly Amazing

2009-12-04T15:32:00.003+08:00

2009-11-27T01:48:00.002+08:00

i can't help but laugh at that comment, seriously.

i'm craving for rp's fried fish noodles soup now.

2009-11-21T12:54:00.001+08:00

sometimes it's nice to just wake up early specially for some dine-in breakfast..

Finally caught the 2012.. got to agree it's not as fantastic as what you imagine. certain scene are not realistic at all like how can one survive through so many danger at all. i guess that's why it's call a movie.. else if they were to die, it wont even last for 2 and a half hour. so overall, its still not as bad..
ok, i left this page open and went around surfing other websites.. and im feeling a little sleepy now. haha. going to catch some show and read the papers i got from the supermarket.

till then..

2012

2009-11-13T17:40:00.013+08:00

2009-11-13T09:12:00.002+08:00

its so damn early in the morning and i cant get back to sleep. decided to just blog something away.. too much of random thoughts at times. what am i doing now when im 'suppose' to be at work, probably complaining at the super packed train yet thinking TGIF. then dreading sunday cause monday blues again. but no, it makes no difference to me in the state i am in now.
call me lazy, or whatever shit. commiting to a full time job isnt what i really want now. i cant imagine myself slogging through the rest of my life now. yes, it means more income... but will i be happier? perhaps only when its the job that i really want... but 10 years down the road, will i regret not going back to student life to learn what i really want/like.
but then again, how many people in this life are able to pursue their own dream.. dont they just hate working now too..
i cant complain much seriously, its a choice.. i can jolly well go for a full time job and these random thoughts will just vanish..
alrights.. my eyes are getting heavy, time to wash up and start a brand new day.. smiling.
it's a beautiful friday.. =)

2009-10-20T01:25:00.002+08:00

this girl here is gonna come on wednesday and turn my house upside down again.. haha.
nah, such adorable.. gonna be saying so much of: coco, don't anyhow shh shh ah. coco here and there. well, at least there's a company.. heard that she's getting fatter!

anyway, a little update.. past few days been looking into schools and suitable jobs.
yup, it's another same decision to make. but if you are not going to make this decision yourself, who is going to? and since all the enrollment are closed, it will be next year thing. but still, need to decide on which so that i will know what kind of job i should look up for. yup..

met up with this really old friend of mine, i think its been almost three years since we last met.
went to attend a birthday party and after that decided to sit somewhere and did a little catch up.. i still rem we can talk about anything and everything. and yup, im glad its still the same now.
chatted for hours till about 2 plus in the morning but have to get home. well, im sure we will meet up soon again. this friend i treasure.

and now.. randomly browse through my photos... and randomly... i realised that the chocolate colour on my face matches with my hair colour! ahaha.. ok. -.-
you, whatever it is.. smile ya. a smile is so contagious.. does that ring a bell? =) =) =) =) =)

2009-10-18T00:45:00.001+08:00

didnt realise that it can be this hard...

2009-10-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

i turn on my radio, listened for a good half an hour. few oldies songs.. thought its some special programe tonight.. then heard some news regarding traffic.. and continue with some more oldie songs... i was thinking... wao laooooo! what happened to the yes 933 i been listening to.
then.. i wore my spects and look at the radio..
95.8fm! omg. so this is the '93.3fm' i been listening to for the past half an hour.
okieee. this is so random.. byeeee.

WII rocks.
p/s: gill, it rocks more looking at you play. hahah.
cheers!

2009-09-24T02:42:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep! boooooooo.

not working = wont use much of brain juice = won't fall asleep easily.
nvm, perhaps when the new baby come in and im gonna make it my new hobby.
so disappointed in certain things now, but well.. i guess thats life.
gonna continue on my show and hopefully to turn in soon. good nights

2009-09-15T19:03:00.003+08:00

sometimes when you are so used to certain things,

even when you just want to take a step forward bothers you.

house been really quiet with only the three of us left. papa will only be back on friday..

haven been sleeping well, had a bad headache in the morning. decided not to go work.

its the last week anyway, afterwhich i wouldnt want to think too....

im waiting for a good sweat out!

2009-08-29T03:22:00.005+08:00

don't judge anything by it's cover and set a verdict,

first take a good look at yourself.

damn!

i hope it's gonna be over soon.

anyways, while waiting for hair to dry, shall update.

Finally met up with the two girls after so long. had dinner and then to chill out which was not bad. we had fun and the laughters.. that's what i'm talking about. and oh ya, mr chin thanks for paying.

rush to catch Final Destination 3D and it's damn exciting and digusting.
you can really feel the effect of everything just right infront of your face and some scene even to the extend as though it's happening to you. though its a bit disappointing and the storyline is almost the same but 3D effect just make it seem so real and brings out the excitment watching the show.
recommended to watch in 3D but please be mentally prepared.
alrights, anything else aside and enjoy the rest of the night...

2009-08-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

rest too early jus now at 8 plus and now im wide awake thinking when will be the next second that i will fell aslp again. gonna go watch some boring movie now. its monday tomorrow...
weekends spent were a little different without bro around.
totally no appetite for the past few days. darn, i hate being sick. i hate having ulcers even more.

and now, i need to start thinking soon.

2009-08-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

just back from seafood buffet, damn full.
it was a simple farewell dinner for my bro and da sao as well.
he's going oversea for 6 months this thurs and so she will be going back thailand few days after.
oh man, i cant imagine 6 months is actually that long.. =(
within this 6 months,
- no family dinner
- no beehoon noodle/duck noodle dabao
- no tom yum soup
- no random shopping day
- no movie together
- no family mj
etc etc. booooo.
so contradicting, yet im looking forward to tomorrow cause coco is coming my house again and gonna stay till sunday!
prob this sat we are bringing her out to east coast.
ok till then..

2009-08-09T19:26:00.001+08:00

Cheers to the long weekend!
so glad theres this holiday even though its already sunday now.
but the thought of "no need to wake up so early" tomorrow just feel great! hahah.
anyway Happy Belated Birthday to NG LIP MIN and LAI ZHI PING!
went many places and my feet felt sore now.
though it was just a simple dinner but hope you guys still enjoy it! loves.

happy holiday people! till then =]

Working life

2009-07-26T03:45:00.001+08:00

started work for a week. pretty much drained up my day. but at least i slept earlier than my usual timing. more to a 'normal lifestyle' and curing those dark circle problem i hope!

2009-07-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

A support that mean so much to every decision...

But still, even without it.

You ought to find your own way through.

Harry Potter is coming up!
its not as anticipating as the previous.. but i guess it's still a worth catch in the cinema.

2009-06-28T02:11:00.005+08:00

I used to listen to it almost everyday during secondary school days. and now,
it has been my best companion for the past few night.

yes 93.3fm.

2009-06-25T01:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY HUIMING! ♥

2009-06-19T15:01:00.001+08:00

why would any mother discourage their own daughter to further study,
saying how old already still go study..
work better, earn money ownself spend.. blah blah. i wouldnt want to spend a single cent of yours if i have the ability now.. dont compare me with them, how old are they already. of course they can do it.
why they can in the past, but not me now..
what's wrong, seriously..
what i did is wrong, what they do is always right.
this is so shitty.. i dont even know what am i suppose to do now.

life is too fragile

2009-06-18T22:29:00.004+08:00

played volleyball today!!
too bad the noodle stall wasnt open, its the best man.

within two weeks i've heard two case,
"fainted and died..."
that's the scary part, one moment you are seeing this person alive and well infront of you, the next minute, or even seconds.... gone, just gone.. without any signs, without any warning...
just listening to it gives the creep.

i dont know, but im so tired today..
had too much of nagging today.. well, off and shall sleep early.

2009-06-14T12:41:00.001+08:00

Caught this movie last night, weekend midnight show somemore.. so not worth it man.

It's... maybe quite funny.. but the storyline is like shit -.-

ok, no worry.. im not blaming you. haha. so funny, rem to get tickets early next time! haha.

tan.J! we are waiting for you, The ghosts of girlfriend past!

TGIS, no more continuous of morning shift!

My sis is coming back tonight! don't know to be happy or not leh... cause no more so free and easy for me! hahah =x

3 more hours to go!

I can't wait to just lay on my bed and stay motionless.

2009-06-12T22:07:00.004+08:00

I can't relate... i don't know why.. but it seem to be a little bit too much..

I'm so reluctant to go work today.. forcing myself to wake up.
but I had this roast char siew rice today for lunch.. its superbbbb..

Are you going to move to the right or left? ~~You~~me have to make a decision.

2009-06-05T18:04:00.000+08:00

Hugs, cry on my shoulders if you want to.
Sorry if i ain't able to share your troubles, or to brighten your gloomy days.
Sometimes i really suck at this.
But i just want to be by your side. Listening to whatever you want to say. It's alright not to talk to me about things you don't want to say. I'll wait till you think time's appropriate.
It's ok if you don't want me to know, i'm happy enough to be by your side.
Waiting for you till you are fine again.
Whatever it is, be strong.. Don't get beaten by obstacles.. How far it's pulling you back, use twice or even thrice the effort to push it back. we are all behind your back to give the extra push whenever you need...
take care.

2009-05-28T20:50:00.005+08:00

sis just left for the airport, will be gone for 17days.. man, guess i will really miss her.
hope everything will be well for her... take care!

2009-05-24T02:58:00.002+08:00

SO WHAT if it's your last week of work.. ? Don't you have any sense of responsibility at all.... just washing hands off everything and don't have to do anything anymore.. it's not the first time of "oh, it's my last few weeks of work.. i don't care already" wth. i pity your boss man.. what an image you portray yourself to others already. i'm planning to help, but too bad... you already set the outcome yourself.
damn.. i dont need one more to add on to things now, especially at this time.

blahhhh, just feel like venting out.. just ignore it. thanks to that.. i can't even fall asleep now. but nvm, nothing can be done also..

goodbye.

2009-05-24T01:50:00.004+08:00

whydoi

feelsolostsuddenly?

2009-05-21T18:32:00.002+08:00

i got these at work today! =D

2 more hours to go.. if my boss see me typing this, we all will be dead. haha. but yes ah.. think going to quit soon. no more nonsense!!

later going to find my sis at holland v. and maybe we are cabbing home! so lazy i know.. haha.

i'm not that hungry now, but cravings start flowing in already!

the connection here are really sucky, my games are taking forever to load....

2009-05-20T19:37:00.004+08:00

The strange thing is, it's always playing the opposite..

2009-05-09T02:31:00.006+08:00

I just want and feel like blogging about this post. haha.
Even though it's a short gathering.. but i guess no words can describe how glad i am. meeting up with you girls, it's been such a long long long time.. though we are all tired, but thank you for still making the effort. =)
Lastly, hope you enjoy your birthday my old friend.. Happy 21st Birthday To You, Qiuling! 13 years of friendship, and still counting. =)

Art Of Rejection

2009-05-06T02:08:00.003+08:00

i should start learning that... is there such a thing?
haha, man again on the last minute i'm on a 11 hours mission tomorrow.. this time round best, first half at jurong and a continuation of second half at woodlands. how great.. i shouldnt be complaining, really.

just that i'm in a dilemma now.... anyways, i wanna go cycle again..
cravings cravings.. this is such a random post.

2009-05-02T21:32:00.005+08:00

two days of exercising, volleyball and cycling..
finally met up with bev, minyi and gloria.. suppose there's yumin too. ate our lunch and cycle at ecp for 2 hours.. a nice catch up with them.. then met up with my bro and da sao continue cycling for about an hour.. i felt a "swollen butt" haha.
had dinner at the food center.. queue for almost an hour for satay beehoon.. wonder why so many ppl queuing for it where it's only so-so.. maybe it's the sauce that make it special.. afterwhich home sweet home..

gonna have a weekly exercise thing. haha

tiring week

2009-04-19T23:12:00.003+08:00

been busy and rushing for gatherings, interview and work. but glad that i've met up with almost everyone that i want to see within a week.. still waiting for some others which i been wanting to meet up with as well.. everyday packed with stuffs. and i survived 11 hours of work yesterday for the 2nd time, you don't know how hard it is to survive through this 11 hours with that pathetic amount of money earned and job scope. haha. finally some rest after a hectic week.. but not really though, having to wake up early tomorrow for work again. -.-
anyway, the girls are starting school tomorrow.. jiayou alrights, cherish the times in school man, seriously.

till then..

2009-04-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

i had a tiring but fun day..
starting with fastandfurious to kbox then to just walking around searching for this and that and dinner. though im really tired at the end of it.. pictures are with them.
till then....

i feel like playing volleyball now.

2009-04-14T00:11:00.005+08:00

i won't want history to repeat itself.. this time round i dont know, but im pretty sure of what i really want. its just within this short period of time, but theres just too much to ask for.. its not too healthy i suppose. if its just meant to be this way, im sorry.. this is out of questions... i dont know,, its happening too fast....

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2009-04-12T14:57:00.006+08:00

~~this week seem to be an injury prone week.. sigh.~~

anyways, it's sunday! which means next week is approaching!

im waiting for the meet ups and all..

tuesday, wednesday and maybe thursday too!

busy week ahead..

gonna make use of the time now to do certain things..

finished the taiwan drama starlit! ending is expected but i think its nice! haha.

ok, hunting for new drama again and anyone got nice novels to recommend?

'best friend"

2009-04-06T22:11:00.006+08:00

my long found "best friend" for the past few nights. =(
there isn't much use for pills..
at least this relieve the ache for the time being..

random

2009-04-01T00:36:00.003+08:00

looking at food now makes me want to vomit.. so uncomfortable. had too much of food jus now for my lunch cum dinner. -.-
sometimes being over-friendly isn't a good thing afterall.
think the management really suck.
not feeling too good.

2009-03-20T01:56:00.006+08:00

craving for some nice spicy thai food now!

this is the best tom yum soup i ever had! "gao gao!" which means super thick! nice! haha.

Must have this and go with the rice!

Lastly, fav kway tiao moooooooo..

YUM!

2009-03-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

been very tired these few days.. and i fell aslp just now while using the comp..
i need to blog this out cause they say that when you blog your dreams out it will not come true? aiya, "ban dan" abit. cause its a bad dream, better to believe than not. haha. its so real, i went for this briefing talk. met this strange guy beside me. followed me out after the talk finish. something bad happen. i shout. he shout. i quickly run off. took the train. crying. dont know why thought of mummytan. sms her about this. then i wake up already. haha. ok lah, abit nonsense.

hmm.. today is a short but meaningful day. seeing others smile wont you just smile along with them? =)

it's that simple..... =)

2009-03-14T03:22:00.002+08:00

had dinner on wed at woodgrove there coffeeshop. it was raining damn heavily while we eat.
jesslyn, i'm sorry you are losing your bet.. hahah. we shopped in ntuc like some crazy auntie as said by lip. haha. and i bought nice dried mango.. =) i think laughing digested my food, so i got hungry that night. lucky got the biscuit. haha.

oh was shock today when my teacher in sec 1 came to add me in facebook today.. he left the school when i was still in sec 1. so glad that he still remember me man.
then he came talking to me in msn. we chatted for hours, from the past till now. he said got job offer for me in his school assisting teaching multimedia stuff. haha. but me as a teacher? hmm... hahah. wait for him to get back from his reservist before getting back to me again. how times flies, its been 7 or 8 years. we are even planning to have a reunion with the rest one of these days. haha. it's really a nice feeling chatting with him..

alright, got to go sleep now. waking up early tomorrow... =)

2009-03-13T01:32:00.001+08:00

another round of resume sent today, hopefully will get a call back soon. opening up to others position as well, hard to get a job nowadays. tried register with job agencies too.

look up quite a few university for oversea study, researching on the different and listing down a few that i might consider. also looking at singapore's one. hopefully can really find one.

there's this particular i will like to comment. i was busy the other day when this unknown number call me. i called back and was told that the one that looked for me was engaged in another conversation. so i continue doing my stuff and waiting for the person to call back thinking it might be a job offer. then i picked up the call. this person sounded rude at first with i dont know what kind of english slang... i couldnt catch what he was talking about at first and trying hard to listen. then he mention about the school name then i remember its a booth which i pass by during the education fair some time back. i merely just took the brochure and told to leave down my name and contact.
ok, thats not the point. but the person just go on and on telling me about their course. when he finally asked: what do you want to work as in the future?
i was thinking yes, what im gonna say will finally stop him. btw, he's calling about some tourism course. so my reply was IT,Media industry. you know what, that doesn't stop him. he go on and on again telling about the bad points of IT, like how in the future IT people is not needed already. how we can just replace IT with those blah blah blah..
like hello, i already say my interest are those. and you dare to say interest don't earn much. are you trying to encourage students here or forcing someone to buy your "product" while saying bad about other course.
i got quite fed up and jus hmm uh all the way, i couldnt really raise my voice as im in the train and people are already looking at me.
so i say i will get back to him again after i consider. then he tried to tell me on the program briefing that they have. i say im not free to go and he say how about next week. wah.. if you talk nicely to me in the first place, i might even consider just to go for the briefing. but sorry no. so i say to get back to him once again. he sounded disappointed though. he pass me his number, i couldnt catch one of the number then i was like huh, for the 2nd time.. type it into my phone, but still no.. so i jus anyhow punch in one number to fit in. haha.
then he asked again when i will call him back. so i said by tonight, in case his heart itchy thinking can earn my commision already.
well, you know what happens later already.. of course i didn't even bother to call back with the wrong number somemore. haha.
this kind of people, wasting other's people time.

but i had fun in the night, hoho. lucky this person didn't spoil my night.
it's been a really long time. chatting and laughing over a simple meal.
all the funny stuffs back then. we even went to took a neoprint as requested by bee. hahah.
sorry for like keep suan-ing you the whole night, but we did have fun right! and you're still loved ok! haha. and of course to wifey. <3!

Are you going to finish strong

2009-03-07T02:32:00.001+08:00

在这时期的我...

2009-02-23T23:58:00.002+08:00

人，在这繁忙的都市里通常都会忙着自己的事。
有忙着工作的，有时间就想要好好的休息
有正在读书的就在忙着学业。
在这时，通常人们都不会发现到以往不曾发觉的。。。
直到你放慢自己的脚步
暂时不为工作而忙碌，不为学业而烦恼
才能看清楚这世界的每件事
尤其是身边最珍惜的人或事，物
有时还会发现许多你不曾知道的。

如果还在忙碌中的你，就抽点时间看一看周围，好好想想在身旁的每一件事，每一个人
哪怕就只有那短短的几分钟
你或许会有不同的发现及了解。

2009-02-20T02:32:00.003+08:00

so bored now and i can't sleep yet. got to wait for my bro to come home to help him open the door.

so jus change a simple skin.

this is for xiaoling- this is the answer

why do dogs lick:

It's something normal, dogs licking people, What's the real reason dogs love to lick people? which is mainly to show and/or demonstrate emotion or to communicate.

licking is a way to show respect, submission, and affection.

Since dogs aren't able to talk, dogs use licking as a way to communicate with other dogs and with humans. Especially around strangers, if a dog likes you, they'll normally lick your hand or even your face as a sign of acceptance. In the other hand, your dog might just want to be walked or of feed, which might be the reason your dog licks you. The list is endless to why dogs lick people, but on thing for sure is that it's something positive. A dog wouldn't lick you and then bark at you, right?

-http://doggyworldforu.blogspot.com/2007/11/why-do-dogs-love-to-lick-people.html

haha.

it's been two weeks, i hope you are doing fine out there. takecare

2009-02-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

It seem that i couldn't discuss anything with my family.

it's up till now then i realise, that i can't really talk to them about what am i suppose to do now, what i really wanted to do.

perhaps it's due to their tiredness after a busy day at work. they just want to do their own things when back home. so whenever i talk to them, they will give a short reply.

when i say i want to continue studying, my mum would say do you really want to study? don't later give up halfway, waste money.. go find a job better, can earn your own income.
when i told my sis that i feel like going oversea study for a course that i find that i might want to do, she will say do you have money? go ask your mama lor.
true enough i agree with this. it's jus a thought anyway.

now im in a rather unsatisfactory decision of what to do next really.
maybe should just settle for any degree cert that will take me.
meanwhile, just start working..

i just feel rather upset with this. i just want someone to discuss with me, give me opinions. and not just do you think you can, or just go ahead if you want.
guess i will just have to seek for my own future.

2009-02-16T02:18:00.003+08:00

notice some changes to my previous post.
haha. resume strike out! not really the standard yet though.. but better than nothing. should be sending out soon.
eh anyway not sure why when i underline or strike out words/sentences it go green. should be something to do with the codes. shall change soon.

another add on, driving license. been talking about it.. haha. gonna register, soon.. soon...

This song is currently on repeat.

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~
撒娇的可爱的
粘人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆
你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一加一
努力就有结局 wo~
撒娇的可爱的
粘人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是爱着你的
脸颊的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手
你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

2009-02-13T21:54:00.003+08:00

hello.. it's been some time.
as mentioned in the previous post asking what's your plan. honestly till now i've no idea to what's mine at all.
it's kinda sad not knowing what your tomorrow is going to be like, or rather you are clueless on what to expect next. while studying, all you know is you still have a school to attend to, even though it's boring and complains are there. but at least, you "belong" to somewhere.
this makes me feeling quite lost now without any motivation or aims. like a wandering soul..

so while thinking today, i've decided to make good use of this period of time to do some meaningful things. haha. meaningful things can mean alot of things, for now that i've think of are...

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1) to learn guitar. think self learning from the net first cause no money to go for lesson. haha.
2) ~~start writing my resume~~ and sending in to company.
3) thinking on what i really want to do in future, once when zhijun mention about mediacrop, things to do with media.. that makes me ponder actually.
4) uni?? this i'm really clueless. there are so many out there... which is good, which is not as good. hmm..
5) meanwhile borrow books and brush up on the skills that i've now, and learning new skill set that will aid in future.
6) blood donation, haha. thinking first only...
7) lastly, to catch all the dramas that i've missed out.
8)Driving license

these are all currently my aims, will add on if i can think of any.. hopefully i'm able to fulfill..
well, at least i've got some Goals now. haha.

2009-02-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

what's your plan now?

hmm...

edited

i suddenly got this crave for durian puff. -.-

2009-01-25T02:52:00.003+08:00

i've got a graduation gift! hee. even though it's simple, but sweet.
one and only and priceless! hoho. =)

2009-01-16T22:47:00.012+08:00

hmm, guess i should blog out certain things. else they will say they don't know what im thinking also. hah. this gonna be long....

alright, so this actually marks the end of volleyball career in republic poly. let's just skip to the last match.

reached there early and watched the match before us. saw how SIM played and i think their fighting spirt is really strong when they play against NUS. next we went to warm up and saw that ntu only start warming up when we can stepped into the court. well that got me quite mad cause even though it's no big match, but where's the least respect i would say. ok nvm about it was jus telling the girls that we shall win this match down to prove to them.

but in the end we lost to them 1-3. it's ok cause everyone really tried their best. especially jialin despite her leg injury and breathless halfway thru she still try her best to bring the team morale up and go for every ball. everyone in the team have tried their best. it's a very tiring match..

it didn't really occur to me when the final whistle blow.

during debrief i think everyone was expecting me to cry. haha. but i think i was too tired at that time and my mind was actually blank. last chance? last match? i thought of it before, but on the spot it left me thinking nothing at all.

so we have to rush to board the bus, that was the time.. everyone in the bus trying to make me cry. so bad of them huh.. haha.

so everyone of them have this little talks to me.. from the first time they know me, till now. the process. and on what gillian say make me think, all the things i've been through. it's like a wake up call. perhaps i hasnt been thinking much about these things cause all i want is to finish this race happily with them. they really make me feel sad to leave with what they said. and they succeeded....

thinking back on the days when they left, it's sure a tough road to walk from then.. and when you know you thought that there will be people to go through it with you. but slowly one by one left. but there's no one to blame, cause they have their reasons to do so. if it's me, maybe i will do the same. that's when the real challenge begin, decision making.

various reasons that made me caught in the middle.

i admit it's tiring, sad, frustrating at times. it make me really feel like giving up. but sure there's the happy moments as well.

trying to put everyone back together. starting from when the year 1s first came in, to camp, to sports tours then various outings that was organised. all the moments spend with each of them no matter good or bad. are all memories that cannot be replaced. how short 1 year can be.

they are one of the reason that keep me hanging on.

i'll miss sending mass sms to you all informing of any trainings.

i'll miss the joy and laughter during trainings.

i'll miss saying warm up/pao bu when you all will still be sitting down there.

i'll miss all the nonsense yet funny stuffs that's coming out from you girls. like what lame jokes jenifer can have(fridge)

i'll miss ivy's powerful shifu technique.

i'll miss the dinner with you girls after trainings.

i'll miss the breakout together.

i'll miss the late night out.

i'll miss the talks, the hangover.

i'll miss camp, sport trip.

this list will just go on and on.

just to say thank you for everything, for being there. for going through all these with me unknowingly.

no matter what happens, hold on to this. for this is sure something precious and hard to come by. thanks for the memories. thanks for everything. i hope this continues.. hang on and all the best. continue fighting and never say die. play with an open heart and mind. remember what's most important is to play happily. =)

LOVES !

2009-01-15T01:27:00.001+08:00

OMG!! take a look at this...

haha. i know this came like super late. BUT at least i don't have to retain cause of this one point. module aside first. haha.

alrights, next post up soon. an emotional one. haha till then...

2009-01-11T16:59:00.004+08:00

just done with packing my room.. clear away some old stuffs, looking back at some of the things, letters, photos.. those are the memories.. haha.

didn't have time to go through one by one. maybe when i am really free one day i shall. looking at these things will just make you smile. =)

hmm.. so now that fyp is down, ce point is still pending for completion.
left with modules to worry about. 2 more weeks to go.. and off for a small getaway! whooo..

read some stuff which i think i rather not know.. how could someone change.. changed to one which i name as, scary. jus because of what you see and hear from others, it might not be the reailty. you've really got to be in the situation to truly understand. i guess that's the complexity of human.

2 ivp games down... maybe that this is the last, thus some expectation. winning is not the most important, but what's playing without a target. through the past two games, it's the own mistakes and mentally that lose out. you know, even when we lost the game, but after everything we should even lost with pride and be proud of who we are. and the emphasis on "kai xin jiu hao"..

through the ups and downs during this period, they will say that it's finally the end soon.
true that after hanging on for so long.. it's quite a tough and tiring process. much have i learn from this. of course there's the happy times, and memories which is something that kept me....

well, continue to fight on.. till the very end. like it says, just a little bit more. =)

2008-12-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

i'm very very tired...
ought to sleep earlier tonight. tomorrow gonna be a long day.
need to save money too! ahhhhh...

2008-12-27T22:05:00.002+08:00

it's the weekend!

though it's not much of a difference since its the holiday and sometimes i even dont know what day of the week it is..
but everyone been talking about new year resolution, next year is coming like in a few days time. haha.

christmas eve was spent with a simple meal and some photo taking session, acting like a tourist.. haha. supposedly a movie and dinner, but something last min cancel.. well, next time if there's any chance again.

can't wait for jan 7th to come.. but first need to complete everything first before thinking of that day to come.
then hopefully you won't get to hear the word fyp coming out from my mouth again.. haha.

ce point, 1 more point to complete! wah better dont be true that i can't graduate of that one point like they always curse me...
but there's no ce talk during this holiday man.. pls ~~motivate/~~remind me to get that one point when sch reopen. before jan 10th.

waiting for mum to be back with mcwings! sudden crave.. haha.

2008-12-23T10:08:00.003+08:00

back from kl!

hmm.. basically nothing much about the trip, 4 days but it's only 2 days of activities.

mostly of trainings and match. not a good experience with hotel rooms. my room consist of jesslyn and me had a weird smell and it's quite eerie. so we room hop to different rooms. but it's the people that make up this entire trip. i'm glad that the bond between them are much closer now and hope this will continue throughout. =)

lots of pictures yet to get from them. i guess all combine to thousand. haha.

sat christmas dinner with them but i only joined them later for the gift exchange. after which most of them went home and the few of us proceed to movie at 2am. Twilight. was too tired that i fell aslp during the long conversation part, but it's nice. jess's edward. haha. everyone is going craze on getting the book, guess im thinking about it too. haha.

reached home in the morning slept and woke up to get ready the gift for the dinner with the pigs.
gift exchange too and we just roam around after dinner before settling at some cafe before going home.

simple gatherings like these can make your day. =)

2008-12-14T22:17:00.003+08:00

it's the holiday.....
leaving for sport tour to kl on tue..
went to cut hair today, wah.. my stylist wasnt there. so just settle with one.. super regret. only to trim but become.... =(

shits lah.. irritate people with my complains =x
need to go school for fyp tml..
pack bag for the trip..
guess till then again ...
=)

2008-12-05T22:59:00.008+08:00

never fail to have stuff to handle everyday..
things that kept you occupied and drain your mind and body at the end of the day.
and when things don't go your way..
fyp exactly a month to submit.
fyp, vb, sch, people.
sometimes it's not helping at all.
仿佛已经越来越不了解了。
go fight all the way till the end.

2008-11-29T01:25:00.002+08:00

plans to bangkok failed.. =(
have to wait till it's more stable before deciding to go again...

2008-11-12T23:55:00.005+08:00

its been a busy and tiring week..
mostly occupied by fyp and vball.
theres certain things left unsettled, and another start coming in.
then another again when those are not settled. haha.
and the cycle will just repeat itself..
hang on man!
even when things are not alright at all...... =)
bangkok bangkok jan/09, hopefully... like again. but nvm.. i need..

2008-11-08T15:03:00.002+08:00

once you're up and running, keep going. once you've worked to establish some momentum, make the most of it.

Don't stop when you've done just enough. With a little extra effort, you can achieve so much more.

You've spent a lot of time and effort getting to where you are. If you stop now you'll have to put even more effort into getting started again.

Keep going until you've far surpassed what you expected to do. Surprise and delight yourself with how much more you can get accomplished.

When you've already done what's good enough, that puts you in a great position. It's more effective to reach higher when you're already moving higher.

Momentum is an unstoppable force. Once you've got it, keep using it, and keep going until you're amazed at what you've done.

- Ralph Marston

2008-11-07T21:12:00.001+08:00

tiring week with start of filming which we are supposed to start 3 weeks back..

maybe due to this is the first week of school and that my clock are upside down.
i wanted to blog, but im really too tired to carry on.. i'm feeling the fatigue.

i need motivation to attend classes regulary man.. =(

not sure how things work now,
i guess i just need someone to assure me that everything is going to be alright.